My life in a very small nutshell

So it seems that my life is so far  from "easy street".


When things are actually starting to go good in my life things happen that make it cuk again.


for the longest time it 's been me wanting to have a boyfriend, and when there is a posssibility , i start to get scared and i start to run  away.
what is my problem ?!?!?!  this i do not know so anyone out there if you could help me ...
please tell me how to keep my boyfriend!!...